Q. : Do you want to say anything about the instant offense. sir?
A.: It was a very selfish act and I deeply regret it. I’m sorry for my crime.
Q…:Why did you target this victim?
A.: Because he was very famous.
Q.: All right, So, you knowingly wanted to inflict death to this victim, John Lennon, correct?
A.: Yes. Absolutely.
Q.: And even after that [earlier] encounter [with John Lennon], you still waited for him to cause his death?
A.: Yes. There was an inner struggle for a while there, you know, what am I doing here, leave now. It wasn’t all totally cold-blooded, but most it was. I did try to tell myself to leave. I’ve got the album, take it home, show my wife, everything will be fine. But I was so compelled to commit that murder that nothing would’ve dragged me away from the building.
Q.: … And the paperback book you had, “The Catcher in the Rye.” Was there any significance to why you had that[?]
A.: At the time, there was a great significance. I identified with the book. I identified with the character, who seemed to be lost and troubled. And in my state of mind at the time, I felt of kind I had was him [sic]. And so, the book was like saying, this is me and I wanted people to read it and it was a confusing time for me.
Q.: You said that you did this for the attention and notoriety?
A.: Yes ma’am.
Q. : And how do you feel about it today?
A,: Absolutely not worth it. Absolutely ridiculously selfish act to take another human life so that I could be pumped up into, you know something that I wasn’t to begin with. I deeply regret it.
Q:… How do you feel about yourself now?
A: Because of my years, I was thinking about this and my age, it’s 57, I’ve come to the conclusion what happened was a very horrible thing. It did not need to be done. It was done for extremely selfish reasons that I regret to this day. I personally can’t think of anything more selfish to do, to take somebody’s life for your own aggrandizement and there were a lot of people in pain then and people that were still want to know what happened now.
Q: People are still in pain, right?
A. There [sic] still in pain, sir. I get letters all the time.
Q.: Are you still in pain?
A.: That’s a great question, sir. I wouldn’t say as much pain. I would say that the pain I have now is trying to stay as close as I can to what I think is right and that is to stay as close as I can to God.
Q.: … Who else did you consider [killing]?
A.: Johnny Carson, … George C. Scott.
Q.: Did you share this plan with anyone, this cold, calculated plan?
A.: …[My wife]. And she said Mark, don’t, right away. And I flew home and met her at the door of our apartment and hugged and cried and it was over at that point. I was fine. In the weeks later, the compulsion started to build again. I felt like a piece of me had become empty again and the compulsion built again.
Q.: … If you were to be released, what happens if you drift off again?
A.:… If released, I probably stay right where I’m at. You know, once you stand on a rock for 20 years and feel the waves on you and you don’t go anywhere because you’re on a rock, you don’t want to move. I’ve had a lot of waves coming through my life and I know how to handle it now.